Tired of Being Negative!

From Pinterest

So, I took down many of my Debbie Downer blog posts today. I had my first radiation treatment and it went smoothly. For the first time in months, I am content and hopeful. My depression has lifted. That is a very, very good thing. I feel more myself.

I have always been a little odd, just like the quote above, and have constantly sought to be “normal”. In my 50s, after a lifetime of depressive episodes that did not respond well to antidepressants, I was diagnosed with bipolar II disorder and placed on Lamictal, which made life so much easier. Still, there are many years I was unstable and did some interesting things because of it, but, you know, that is part of who I am also. I have come to realize also that “normal” never existed.

I think many of us spend our valuable time trying to fit into a mold of what those around us consider “normal”. There is no such thing. There are those people who project an illusion of a perfect life few could possibly attain. A perfect life is an illusion. It is not true. It is not real. There is no perfect anything. I think many of us spend our valuable time trying to fit into a mold of what those around us consider “normal”. There is no such thing. There are those people who project an illusion of a perfect life few could possibly attain. A perfect life is an illusion. It is not true. It is not real. There is no perfect anything.

The ability to be happy with who one is and what one has is an acquired trait, I think. Or, it was for me and I still struggle with it. Everyone has a passion or many passions. Those things, activities, or jobs we believe would make us eternally satisfied, but many of us will not be able to attain, so we remain dissatisfied with who we are or what we have.

Me, I want my health after all this treatment is through. I want to vacation a few places for short periods of time. That is pretty much it for me. I love the sun. As soon as I complete radiation, I plan on being outside as much as possible. I want to complete a few pieces of furniture still sitting in the garage I started to distress before all this recurrence crap started. I am determined to feel happy and feel joy again.

So, I end this post saying we are enough. Whatever we are is normal for us. We deserve to be happy. What makes one of us happy may not be what , makes another happy. Sometimes we have to let go of others who do not contribute to our happiness and just be ourselves.

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18 Comments

  1. Reblogged this on Notes and commented:
    Either by mistake or pure luck, she wrote these awesome words twice in the same paragraph;

    “I think many of us spend our valuable time trying to fit into a mold of what those around us consider โ€œnormalโ€. There is no such thing. There are those people who project an illusion of a perfect life few could possibly attain. A perfect life is an illusion. It is not true. It is not real. There is no perfect anything.”

    Her post inspired me to write this on my own blog;

    Give me
    Your definition

    Of normal
    And I will

    Prove you
    Abnormal

    Liked by 1 person

  2. Wow
    I love this. Especially the quote and how you are applying it
    I hope you finish treatment soon and enjoy your travels (I loved the Canary Islands)
    Love light and glitter

    Like

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